Weak Words

Look at this dripping pain;
Watch it as it burns me...
Slowly eroding my brain;
Drown me in misery.

You can't stand to see it;
You're dragging me away,
But this fire I have lit
Will burn through yesterday.

How my pen betrays me,
Not writing the thoughts I seek;
My mind just teases me,
The words all seem so weak.

Like acid dripping from my mind -
Each feeling leaves a scar.
I see so much I'm nearly blind;
Hope beckons from afar.

You can't stand to watch me -
Throw my life away;
You like reading my songs,
But can't stand to hear me play.

There's so much within that I
Will never understand;
Thoughts and visions haunt me
And will until I die.

You think that it's just weakness,
That I'm afraid to live;
So I try to repress -
What my mind wants to give.

Something smothering within
And screaming as it tries -
In vain, it seems, to win
And walk out through the lies.

I don't understand much yet,
But hope someday I might;
Maybe I'll learn to let -
Some of it reach the light.

Or maybe I'm not strong enough
To control it once it's free;
Maybe I'm not strong enough
To stop it from killing me.

Look at this dripping pain;
Watch it as it soothes me...
Driving me insane,
Caressing with its misery.

Listen to this confusion,
To find what's beneath it all;
Help me separate illusion -
From the truths desperate call...


© Barry Wayne Veinotte